inspired by miss staci powell

so here goes nothing... i just finished my first semester of college and it has been nothing short of eventful... i have to say it may have been too much to handle in such little time. I as usually had trouble with the whole being lonely aspect of life something everyone goes through having a roomate/ close friends in relationships can get hard sometimes when your stuck wanting that support system that they have but i guess its something that everyone goes through and that i just need to get over... as for they boys this semester the final conclusion is none as usual... which is i have to say after a recent conversation with my friend helen im suprisingly okay with that  ive realized that i really truly want to be single which is an amazing revelation for me hahaha i think ive decided that your first years of college are for finding yourself and i have to honestly say that i have learned soo much about myself in this past semester its crazy and i think that to do that you do have to be single not held back per se by anyone

So the next thing i guess is my college partying experience haha fun stuff as much as i love clubbing and being with my friends i still stand by the fact that people are the most unattractive they can possibly be when they are drunk ... and i know ive got this dont drink dont judge policy in my head to be honest it really hurts me to see my friends drinking sometimes... but that is something i cant really help which is fine i guess... to be honest in general i am getting tired of the party scene i have met so many people but i want to get to know this people in a room just talking listening to music no alcohol no frat houses just people in a room talking haha i guess thats the idealistic side of me still comming out but it is a goal for next semester ...get to know the people ive met better

This next topic to attack is friends... i have to say as a whole i am pretty disappointed in myself for so long i have been used to that big group of multi-racial friends i have forgotten how easy it is to be sucked into the indian crowd.. i mean i love the people ive met but i really wish i had a more diverse group of friends hopefully that will happen next semester... as for the people i have met i have to say it is mainly boys haha i dont know some say im trying to replace a certain close friend i had... i tend to agree with them but its okay they are fun and goofy so its okay i have to say its strange there is one that i trust in perticular i dont know why hmm but they are all great as for girls i newbee is miss shivani shah! i love her to death! she is such an amazing person so easy and fun to be around and i am sooo glad that i have gotten to know her this year! as for old friends i still adore all my highschool girls staci will always be amazing in my eyes she is someone i can see myself being friends with forever (seriously) if our lives permit and raquel of course is still and will always be my saving grace my escape form my problems and a person who always has ears to listen about my petty life haha i love her and as for reconnecting with old buddies me and silkie have found our way back to friendship haha ive missed her and i am trying to forgive and fix things with certain other friends....ohh and me and vinay still hang he will always be one of my best buddies and i do miss joey and justin still from time to time but its break! and ive already seen justin twice haha

so overall its been a good semester

goals for next semester

1. Make more diverse friends and get to know the ones i already have
2. study hard get my straight A's and get into the business school
3. stop worrying about boys and concentrate more on find myself hahha...
4. plan for my future, find a substantial job for the summer and be happy

with that said im out

always

salonee

Happy

Birthday

Meeru!

i love you! your the best friend and most amazing sister in the world siigh i have no idea what i would do without you honestly! you keep me smiling ... and i cant wait to do all the stupid things we have planed downtown cafes, schillterbhan with our super hot boyfriends:) and our perfect bodies, foreign countries juss to get away from it all, *eating clouds*

siigh i luv yah girl Have an awesome 17th birthday.... wow that sounds weird

always

salonee

through the good and the bad times...

i always have six reasons to smile

Reality...

its Unreal...

siigh i remeber going to your house a few years ago... being forced to go by my parents of course to another stupid dinner party... and how every "kid" there was 5 years older than me, but yet you were soo nice and helped me fit in... always smiling and laughing ... it was one of the best dinner parties i have ever been to

i remeber thinking wow i finally fit in with the big kids! siigh... i remeber my mom asking me afterwards you had fun didnt you i told you would have fun... siigh all the superbowl parties i just wish i knew you better

you will be remebered

R.I.P Nirav Gandhi

your smile is forever with us...